Today went for big brother hearing. Need 30k cash to bail him. I felt so useless. 23 years old le dont even have 30k. He cant be bail out need stay at lock up untl 23rd of june see the judge wanna lower his bail anot if not 19 of july will be his court day and he cannot come out all the way. I was wondering how he survive inside. Cant smoke all that plus needed wake up early. I feel so sad. Last time when i was inside he care and visit me so often. Am i able to do the same to him? I really dont know. Im scare of visiting him alone all that. Why im born with no gut? I hate myself. Just now see his face like so shag the worse is he tot we dint went to his hearing. He told the judge that his family wasnt here so he need to make a call. We are there. Just that he dint turn his head to see if we are there anot. I will pray for u bro. Hope everything will be fine.

~theres no love~